Thank you so much for writing this and sharing. My three sons lost their dad almost 8 years ago, around the same ages that you were. I feel the weight of being the one parent, and hope I am healthy for a long time. But as you bring out here in your words, we don't know. I do see some of their anxiety in your words! I'm so glad you found that article and it led to this place of words and articulating what you're feeling. It becomes key to find such pieces and make time every day to let the healing of that day take place. Time doesn't heal. But it makes life shift in some way. I wish you strength and peace!